I felt a numbness in my lower right arm from the elbow radiating down into my hand. My middle and ring fingers were swollen and there were sensation of pins and needles, tingling and pulsating. Then an excruciating pain followed that made me groan and moan. Lifting my arm made the pain even worse. Was I having the symptoms of stroke or heart attack?
I quickly took two aspirin tablets as my wife advised me to do if ever I felt any such symptoms. Too bad, my personal nurse (wifey) was across the world visiting relatives in the Philippines when I had those scary moments. Therefore, I was alone in that emergency.
Shall I call 911 or drive myself to the emergency room? I prayed, then googled “symptoms of stroke and heart attack” on my iPhone. I could not even use my right hand fingers to type the letters, so I did it with my left.
It turned out that what I was experiencing were none of those that I suspected. It mustn’t be stoke because I had none of the following symptoms except the sensation in my arm and hand. 
Neither could it be heart attack for the symptoms are much different.
Therefore I ruled out 911 and the emergency room visit.
But I had this painful condition that must be dealt with. I took some Tylenol pain reliever. It didn’t seem to work. The pain actually got worse as I felt a burning sensation in my palm and fingers. I went to the wash room and ran cold water on my hand. The burning sensation was relieved somehow. I laid in bed propping my arm on a pillow. But keeping it still made the pain grew worst that kept me awake all night. I had to get off bed every so often and move my arm and hand. Moving them while standing helped dispel some of the pressure and pain.
What is this condition?
I remember when my wife had a carpal tunnel syndrome. She would wake up in the middle of the night groaning in pain, rush to the wash room and ran cold water on her hand. She developed carpal tunnel syndrome through the years operating an Autocad designing program on a computer. The repetitive motion of her hand and fingers damaged some nerves. She had a surgery to correct injury and the procedure was covered by workman’s comp.
I still have not gone to my doctor to this date. I’m scared of the idea of being under the knife again. Besides, what kind of expense would that entail? Unlike my wife, I had no employment that would provide workman’s comp!
I’m suspecting that I had developed a carpal tunnel syndrome on my right hand and arm. All those years of cooking and food prepping, gardening and all other hand tasks were taking a toll on my busy, overworked hands. 
There is always numbness in my hand. The irony is that I only feel the pain when my hand is rested (not working). For whatever reason, when I’m busy working I feel no pain at all. Seems like work, work, work, work is the cure. When my hand is in pain, I would find something to do- wash the dishes, fold the laundry, clean the house, weed the garden…..How long can I endure that? That’s why I call it “my restless, tireless hand!” Seems like I will only rest when I’m finally laid to rest. Isn’t that true to every human being?






















































He also warned me to be always careful and mindful of my surroundings as there are deadly snakes that resemble the color of their surrounding and therefore difficult to spot. “Before entering the thicket, you must make a lot of noise to shoo away the deadly snakes. Always look around, up and down before you work, always be careful.”
I saw and heard variety of birds. There were small monkeys hanging by their tails on tree branches. There were varieties of wild berries on vines and bushes. Uncle Polon showed me which ones were edible. There was plenty to nibble while gathering my “buho”.
To “wring out” is to squeeze, extract and get rid of something. Attitudes of indifference and negativity are toxic and need to be eliminated from a person’s character if he or she is to demonstrate compassion . These actions repel instead of draw people .
Good intentions are simply meaningless , null and void if not accompanied with appropriate actions. Hence, a call for action must be heeded.









The hardest part of leaving the restaurant had something to do with my church. For almost four years, Mabuhay Restaurant was the home of my church congregation Lord of the Nations. We met there every Sunday afternoon. The restaurant converts to a church at 4 o’clock on Sunday afternoons. In one corner of the dining area, I built a small stage that served as my pulpit where I stood and preached. 















Dr. Wilhelmina (Ruth) Pacis- she and her husband Dr. Armando Pacis -founded Lord of the Nations Church with me. She loved the work of the Lord and the Church- very generous giver, thoughtful friend. Always hungry for the Word. She loved to sing and play the piano.
Arturo & Violeta Fajardo- She was my Sunday School teacher when I was a young boy. I became their pastor at later years. This couple had the gift of hospitality. They welcomed many people to their house- fed them, befriended and encouraged many of us. I ran to them when I need to hear wise counsel.
Armando Pacis-never ashamed of his Lord and the Gospel. He shared the Good News to his patients and even strangers. Very diligent in preparing for teaching and preaching. He was Vice Chairman of the Church Board for many years.
Efren Larugal Olivares- my brother-in-law who’s my co-worker in the ministry both in Oman and the United States. A master tool man being a mechanical engineer, generous, man of few words, but when he opens his mouth, words of wisdom flow.
Letty Soriano Villanueva- a good friend at later years who gifted me with two pairs of d signer Barong.
Flaviana Olivares – my mother-in-law, kind generous., thoughtful. She shared with me some of her best culinary expertise. I am eternally grateful to her and husband Jeremiah for producing the most amazing woman in the world- their daughter Edita whose hands I begged to marry me! She’s a super grandma to our kids!
Feliciana Valenzuela Agulto- my big sister. She and her husband Alfredo took care of me, help me through college. I owe them a debt of gratitude.
Basilisa Emperio Valenzuela-my Mother dear. One of the most faithful, genuine Christian woman I ever knew. Raised seven children on her own having been widowed early. Prayer warrior, most generous, super humble, displayed patience and perseverance. She imparted to me the love of singing. When I was a young boy, we had a nightly family devotion where we sang all the songs in a Tagalog hymn book.
Rolando Sumang- my brother-in-law having married my sister Dimi. Preacher, entrepreneur, handyman. He filled in an important need of the church- a prolific-genuine Tagalog preacher/Bible teacher. A good provider to his family. Gone too soon but left a precious legacy through her three beautiful, smart daughters: Ardie, Rodilee and Rosval.
Severino Gabriel- a public servant in his community having served as Barangay Chairman. His service to his family and constituents were deep and sincere. He was a faithful husband to my niece Almira and a loving father to three beautiful, smart girls. His eldest daughter is following his steps in the government service.
Loida Garcia- a sister in the Lord. She exemplified genuine trust and faith in the Lord. My family, especially my mother were in the receiving end of her generosity, kindness and thoughtfulness. We sang together in choir.
Luzviminda (Nene) Sevilla- she and her husband Engr. Sevilla took me to their folds when I was a teenager. They provided me with a comfort of a home, food and clothes. More importantly, they encouraged and supported me to pursue my dreams. I am indebted to their generous, kind-hearted family.
Wayne & Virginia Wright- my mother was of the first fruits of their missionary labors in the Philippines. My whole family became followers of Christ through their faithful work. They established the first Pilgrim/Wesleyan Bible College in the Philippines which produced leaders and preachers . Their contribution to missionary work is exemplary.
Elyrn Lepaoen and wife Susana (picture below) were the pastors of Cabanatuan Wesleyan Church when I was a young boy. They provided me with strong spiritual foundation. They set in my life a trajectory to ministerial work. I love their teaching, singing and preaching. They set a beautiful model before me.
Susana Lepaoen















